Amazing Grace. Those two simple little words put together now mean so much more to me than ever before. If you would have asked me a year ago what those words meant to me, I would have just thought of the song and nothing more. Now, I feel and understand it with every fiber of my being. HE, who has forgiven me for e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g and loves me regardless of what I have done or what I may do. Can you imagine loving another human like that? I can’t. It’s simply incomprehensible. Why it took me so long to figure this all out, I’ll never know. But I do know that now that I have, I’m going to do everything possible to glorify Him in my life every single day. Today I will make no apologies about my faith, because it is the greatest gift I have ever received and I pray for each and every one of you to be filled with the light of God so that you too may live in full faith of the One who wants to save us all.
Just last week Addison and I went to the PAO baseball conference. PAO stands for Professional Athletes Outreach. They are an excellent Christian organization whose business is bringing people closer to Jesus. Every year they have a conference for professional baseball players and their spouses as a way to “recharge their batteries” so to speak. I cannot say enough about PAO and their conference and how absolutely wonderful it was. If you are a part of the baseball family, I highly recommend going next year because it will change your life! We worshiped with FFH, heard incredible speakers (Gari Meacham, Francis Chan, Bob Shank, Don Christensen, Jon and Jeni Kitna), connected with and expanded our baseball family, and so much more. But for me the highlight of the week was my baptism with my husband. Addison and I both made the decision to be baptized, together, to make our proclamation to the world that Jesus is our King and Savior. That day, November 29, 2012, will forever be written on my heart.
I am not going to go on and on like I really want to right now, but I do want to leave you with this… I walked this Earth in my days before knowing God in constant fear. Fear of failure, acceptance, rejection, love, future, basically fear of everything. Now that I do know God, He has turned that fear into faith. I know that with Him my life isn’t going to be perfect. I’m not going to get everything I want. I will have struggles. But what I will be is eternally His.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10